down day

i had a very down day yesterday. i was worrying about my nephew, and disappointed that the outdoor shade jason and i built this week is too easily over powered by the wind (fail) and feeling generally down on myself. i was also down about yet another week of no gym, and entirely my own fault.

but- i did try to change my attitude. i mowed the neighbors lawn. its really long (they are getting divorced, both moved out, the house will likely foreclose) and needed cut, and they were always great neighbors to us so i decided to do something nice. then i remembered thats the third lawn i mowed this week. i did ours on saturday, and the rental on monday so i did actually get in three pretty good work outs after wednesday at the gym.

then i took a shower and poured myself a glass of ice tea (which a fly promptly drowned himself in... add that to the negative list) and sat out back on the swing for a while. i chatted with heidi online, and then mom called to tell me how the hearing went. it was nice to talk to heidi. we were both having off days and the company was good. but i found out from mom that the direction they are requesting to move with brayden means they are not looking to family placement right now. and that is a huge disappointment. (it is OPPLA or APPLA if you want to know.)

so, a roller coaster of a day yesterday.

and today is wednesday. last week i weighed 194 pounds. this morning when i stepped on the scale, i weighed 192.8 for a loss of 1.2 pounds. i am okay with that. its been quite a week, and i know i could do better in several areas but im still chipping away at that goal. this weeks loss put me over the 20 pound mark (20.6 pounds lost) and that is a good reason to smile.

i have a plan for this week (even though the rec closes TOMORROW for 5 days... ger) and i am hoping to see a number under 190 next week. i havent set a goal for the week for a while, and it will be nice to do that again.

so pray for me if you would, and i will keep going. im in Philippians this week, ive finished 1 Corinthians through Ephesians and have just been making my way through. i love 1 Corinthians. also, i bought a ticked for the beth moore simulcast next saturday. and on sunday i think i will sign up for the tuesday morning bible study, even if i have to swap cars with jesse once week to get all the kids there.

"therefore, my beloved brotheren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the lord, knowing that your labor is not in vain in the lord."
1 Corinthians 15:58

"and let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."
Galatians 6:9