Friday, March 16, 2012

i cant wait for this semester to be over. 6 more weeks of class. 6 more weeks. our lives are so interrupted by this full schedule its just overwhelming.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012


last wednesday i weighed 167.8 pounds. this morning i weigh 166.2 pounds. thats 1.6 pounds gone this week.

i thought i would have more to say than that, but after sitting here for several minutes i guess i dont. im looking forward to the next week. (mostly because once it is over, spring break is here!)

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

sunday monday tuesday

jason and i spent sunday pretending he is not in school. we did laundry together, watched two movies he has wanted to see for a long time, and snuggled on the couch till too late at night. it was really nice.

yesterday i took the kids out in the stroller for a mile (ish) jog around the neighborhood while jesse was here with the boys cleaning crayon off the play room wall.

today the kids and i stayed close to home except to go vote (and watching the news right now about the levys, i just want to say to people, if you voted no, thats great! but PLEASE, have a reason! just because you think they dont need it isnt an informed vote. its not looking good for a pass in nampa, so im pretty bummed. but we will see.) anyway, after voting we happy mealed and came home to finish watching robin hood. i put the kids to bed and did all the moves for the 30 day shred with longer intervals to make it a 30 minute work out instead of 20. so, i kind of did the shred.

tomorrow i weigh, and im kind of looking forward to it.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

hiking the foothills, not childs play.

its been a long and stressful day today. kids were cranky this morning, didnt nap this afternoon, and needed to go to bed early tonight.

jason stayed home long enough to pick up our basket this morning and to eat breakfast with us, then headed into work. i took the kids in at 3 to meet him and we hiked around the foothills for an hour and a half. i carried emma for more than an hour of it. we had a quick dinner together at taco del mar (love that place!) and i came home. hes using the quiet of the office, and availability of auto cad to get some home work finished.

i could really use that hour im loosing tonight to get some extra rest.

so sore!

we took full advantage of the beautiful day yesterday and walked to pick up emma from school. we stopped at school, then at albertsons to return movies and pick up snacks (string cheese and bananas) and walked home again. its a little more than 4 miles all together.

side story, in the tail end of the walk sometime we lost georgies hat and didnt notice till we got into the neighborhood again. so as soon as we got to the driveway we piled into the car to go look for it. and this time we found it! (we also lost georgies hat on a walk last summer in boise, one i had just made that day, but never found that one.)

Friday, March 9, 2012

rough patch

gah. ive been taking a fine tooth comb to the blog this week, looking for any little bit of explanation and necessary change and wow- what a rough patch its been the last two months. february, while the shortest month seems to be in the running to be the most difficult. i had already forgotten about the whole family spending two weeks sick. georgie got off antibiotics and emma went on them the same day. i was just out for five days with a cough and jason had the weekend version of the same thing as the rest of us were starting to feel better. is it any wonder why i gained weight? if i ate, i wanted comfort food, and i wanted it quick and easy. im sure i made a lot of pizza and sweets because carbs and sugar are my cravings when im sick. what a short memory i have.

i thought i had been battling weight from christmas, but i shed almost all of those 4 pounds in the first weeks of january. it was the weeks i didnt stay on top of logging activities and my weight, the weeks i was too overwhelmed to make sure i took care of myself that i saw a gain. i need to remember that.

check in

looking for a big (small) number this week, i am weighing every morning. this morning i am RIGHT ON TRACK. its great encouragement to keep it up.

also, watching the today show this morning i saw a new boy band, and because i am apparently a teen girl, i kind of love them.

edit: i forgot to add, yesterday i did the shred again, and took the kids out for a half mile walk.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

shoes, old posts, exercise, taking responsibility.

im considering minimalist shoes. ive heard a lot about them, and lately they are starting to look more like normal shoes (because looks are so important... ha.) reading another mother runner's post on merrell's new shoes got me thinking about the kind of shoes i wear in general. the description of zero drop soles fits my toms perfectly. and they are so comfortable because i dont feel like im wearing shoes at all.

isnt that the point of minimalist shoes?

i have a groupon for shu's that im going to use to replace my running shoes. mine arent dead yet, but i have a lot of miles on them and id like to continue to wear them for long walking days and workouts while i ease into a new pair. especially if that new pair is a minimalist one.

i spent some time last night (after taking a half hour nap with emma when i put her to bed) reading through the last year of posts and looking for some inspiration. i found several posts that either reminded me how far ive come, or resonated with where im at now, or kicked me in the butt to get my act together again.

when i am stressed, i do not get enough sleep. i dont eat well and i eat too much. i munch when im tired, and im always tired. i snack when im lonely and when im worn out from a busy day. because i eat poorly, and im lacking sleep, i have no energy. im not active enough and that just perpetuates the cycle.

i am trying to interrupt the cycle. im trying to do it as a single parent because jason is so swamped with work and school i feel like i cant ask him to come home in time for me to go to the gym. and by "in time" i mean by 9pm. the gym closes at 10. so what do i do? figure out another way. i mean, if this is important to me, and clearly IT IS, then i need to step up my responsibility and take care of myself.

i havent recorded any exercise for march, but i have been doing it.
march 3, 3.25 miles and 10 minutes on the stair master
march 4, 1.75 mile walk to the park with the kids
march 5, 1.5 mile walk around the neighborhood with all three boys, also several games of bowling and air hockey. (and i am sore from the bowling, so it totally counts.)
march 6, 30 day shred, level one

today is warmer again. i plan to walk the kids, and pop in the shred again. thats what i would have done a year ago.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

a lot of reflection

im stewing on some things today. in a good sort of way. i chose to turn my day around last night and after putting emma and georgie to bed (georgie chose to say thank you to jesus for emma last night. cutest thing in the entire world.) i changed and put in my jillian dvd. its been a long time since i did the 30 day shred.

when it was over (after several blips from my computer not working, and swapping it to the tv, and emma getting up) i really felt better. i kind of wanted to do it again.
i ended the evening with fresh hair color and a long bath. and a lot of reflection.

this morning i weigh 167.8 pounds. a loss, and lower than ive been in a couple months. i decided to delve back into my last year and see what i was doing last year that was working, and what i did in the winter (specifically since i gained over christmas) that isnt working. theres a lot there. and some really interesting things going on too. im not ready yet to try and articulate what im feeling. i want to sit on it a little while longer. but soon. ive got some more reading to do, and i need to start taking my own advice.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

long days

i am just feeling worn down. im tired, im eating really poorly, my patience is worn out, and im just tired. im tired.