Wednesday, February 29, 2012

i missed logging a couple miles at the gym this weekend. i though i had written it down here and just not on my paper list, but it isnt either place. saturday feb 25th i pushed myself out the door and did two easy miles (run one walk one) at the rec center.

i was nervous, frustrated, worried when i weighed myself this morning. i have been so close to 170 all week without actually being there. i was relieved to see i weigh 168.6 pounds, down 0.2 from last week, this morning. not excited, but relieved.

i have taken to cleaning the kitchen this week. i started in the farthest corner and have worked my way out. today that meant tossing brand new boxes of girl scout cookies into the back of the pantry where i wont find them for a while. i am finding that when i spend more time thinking about and preparing my meals, i make better choices for them. i enjoy eating them, and dont gobble it up and over eat. and ive loaded extra fruits and veg into everything. (bell pepper in my sweet and sour chicken, grapes in my salad, kiwi mango and blackberries blended into my milk at lunch time...) gives me more to eat and keeps the fat and calories lower. time will tell if it pays off.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

wednesday weight, a day late

i did weigh myself yesterday, i just didnt get around to writing it down. i weigh 168.8 pounds. ugh. im bummed. but- i have to be proud of my time at the gym this week, 4.5 miles sunday, 2.5 miles tuesday, and then last night 2 miles, 5 minutes on the stairs and 10 minutes on the elliptical. my leg started to hurt as soon as i started to run last night, so i kept it short. i did a mile plus a lap to start and finished with walk one, run two, walk one after the stairs and elliptical. im taking today off from running to let those little tears heal before i rip them open again.

im trying to remain positive and watch for change, but i am struggling with it because ive been stuck here for a year. actually- im two pounds heavier than i was a year ago. i have seen a change in my size since then, which is great. but im still looking for that number.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

several runs lacking in special stregth

with tomorrow being wednesday and my weight needing recorded i decided to put in the time i needed on this post tonight. waiting till tomorrow would just make it that much longer.

(now, my big decision has been do i go in chronological order, or group like things together?)

jason worked on saturday, so i drove the kids in for a sack lunch dinner with him at the office. it was a long day (he got home at 11) but its just a part of the system right now to get through this semester.

we had nursery duty on sunday and played with just georgie and another little boy for the first hour. second hour we found out there was no sunday school and instead of going home, our class took up a table in the fellowship hall and caught up with one another. i told jason in the car on the way home that i was so glad we stayed for sunday school. it was a nice break.

at home we fed the kids and i headed to the gym for my first run in several weeks and set out a plan to keep it slow to prevent coughing. (i am feeling quite a bit better, but do still wheeze and cough.) walk 2 laps, run 3 for 4.5 miles. it was wonderful. i felt like a crazy person giggling to myself listening to another mother runner podcasts (the obgyn and beginner ones) as i ran around the rec. it was wonderful. i really loved all of it. it took me 57 minutes to go those 4.5 miles, but it was still wonderful.

i hit the track again tonight with more on my mind than sunday. this time i had amr q&a on my ipod and couldnt shake the trouble i am having managing my evenings. i am trying to figure out how to spend time with jason (when hes not doing homework. this usually lasts about 10 minutes after he gets home and before he settles down with his books.) and time for myself, reading or browsing the internet or sewing or whatever just for me, and also time at the gym. no, time at the gym does not count as time for me. i described this to jason this evening. the gym is a chore for me. i rank it above dishes, and folding laundry, but below washing laundry.

i have a lot more to say about bible study today, but its getting late. ill end with 1 Kings 18:45-46 45 And soon the sky was black with clouds. A heavy wind brought a terrific rainstorm, and Ahab left quickly for Jezreel. 46 Then the LORD gave special strength to Elijah. He tucked his cloak into his belt[a] and ran ahead of Ahab’s chariot all the way to the entrance of Jezreel.

i looked it up. that run was something between 15 and 25 miles. i cant find a consistent or reliable answer, but its looking like something more than a half marathon and less than a full, at chariot pace. elijah had been consistently faithful to the Lords will for years and had just seen a big win in the form of a small cloud. he ran. and the Lord gave him special strength. (other translations say the hand of the Lord was on him.) i needed this verse today in so many ways. some running related, some more spiritual. in the long run (ha.) im holding on to elijahs faithfulness, and Gods gift of special strength. thats what i need right now, and jason needs it ten fold.

Friday, February 17, 2012

i forgot to log jason and i took the kids to play at the park on sunday evening when it was so nice and warm (before the snow this week). two miles there and back, and a busy half hour of swinging, sliding, and climbing for all of us.

also, this morning my weight is a more reasonable 165.4 pounds.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

another rough week.

friday afternoon i started feeling a little crummy. sore throat, little coughing. then i relized i have been exhausted for several weeks. my body has clearly been trying to fight this bug off and i didnt even notice. well, it failed. by saturday i was full on sick. monday georgie came down with it too. his attitude does not improve when hes not feeling well, there has been a lot of scream-y crying here this week. yesterday (when i forgot to weigh myself i was so distracted) when i picked emma up from preschool they said she had started acting like she didnt feel well, and was doing a lot of coughing. i felt terrible. i try so hard not to take her when she is at all sick because i just dont want to share those germs, and its not like i have to take her, im not working out of the house or anything.

so as i pull into walmart to get some pedialite for my liquid food only children, georgie starts to wheeze. dr visit it is. a steriod and antibiotic for an ear infection later, he should start feeling better. emmas fever continued to climb. 103.6 when i checked her this morning. we had a long night with georgie waking up to scream at 4am, and emma having fever induced bad dreams ("wheres daddy? daddy, are you okay are you okay? daddy, are you okay?") from 1am-430am.

jason got up at 4, angry at his lack of sleep and even more stressed than when he went to bed at 11. he has a class at school that has him feeling like a failure. its an important class, group work, with a panel of 7 professors grading projects, papers, and presentations. the problem? all 7 profs have different expectations and none of them are making any of the expectations known to the students. they can be graded a 5/5 on professional dress by one prof, and a 1/5 by another. an 80% on their paper from one prof, and a 30% by another. and the professorship doesnt see a problem with this situation. the whole class has a high D or below, and they are telling the students this is "normal" at this point in the class. he is working so hard on it and just keeps getting knocked down. its wearing.

point: he needed the sleep, and he didnt get it.

point: we are sick, miserable and i weigh 168 this morning.

point: may cannot come soon enough.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

a gain and a loss

165.4 pounds this morning. this is a gain from last wednessday, but is a loss from monday morning (after enjoying a very snacky weekend) when i stepped on the scale and weighed 168.8 pounds. yikes. so ill take my 165 and make it better next week.

Monday, February 6, 2012


jason and i took the kids out for 4 miles of walking/jogging. it was so nice. as in, emma fell asleep in the stroller at 5pm and slept till 7 the next morning nice. nice.
a rough day with the kids. i left the moment jason got home for 30 minutes on the elliptical.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

back dated

lots of eating out and great coffees the last week, and they show on the scale. but, 164 pounds isnt bad.