Wednesday, November 24, 2010

i am thankful for wednesdays

i was sure i had gained weight this week. too much food. too many sweets. too much salt. 26 hours in a car. a funeral. i was sure.

this morning i weigh 177.4 pounds, for a loss of 0.8 pounds. my biggest loss in a month i think. my drivers license is almost accurate. it has said the same thing since i was 16. 175 pounds. too bad i just did an 8 year renew on it, or i would totally change my weight on my card. :)

so its wednesday, and i am thankful.

my parents are driving over santiam pass (i hope theyve made it over anyways, its been 3 hours) on their way here. my nephew is in town with his foster family, and they are bringing him over this evening for a visit. (his foster mom tells me he has been asking all week when he gets to go to aunt sarahs house. !! :D) and jason has thursday and friday off.

i am thankful today is wednesday.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

the georges

we are in california for jasons grandmas funeral this morning. it is a sad but happy time with all the family home. we are here from tuesday morning, until sunday.

its wednesday. its been a stressful week. i have been diligent. my third half hour work out was a walk to starbucks and back with katie yesterday morning.

this morning i weigh 178.2 pounds for a loss of 0.4 pounds this week.

i am chipping away. i dont know what else to say. we had the family viewing last night, and today is the funeral and we will bury grandma mary. grandpa george met baby george yesterday. he told me, "you know how people say 'that made my day'? well, when you had george, that made my life. it really did." from a man who just lost his wife, that made me want to weep.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

just logging some gym time
31 minutes 2.65 miles 357 calories

Thursday, November 11, 2010

just for comparisson

june 7, august 18, november 11

today is a big big day.

i just bought size ten skinny jeans.

i cant find a picture of me in my red dickies, i know i have some at the coast, but on a different computer, and i dont want to go upstairs and hassle with it. so this one will have to do. this is christmas 2004. i am wearing a pair of size 12 dickies, and as you can see, they are too big. but thats me, the last time i wore a size 10.

that was 6 years ago. i was a 12 when i got married. then i gained weight when we were trying to get pregnant with emma. it was stressful. after she was born, i lost 44 of the 54 pounds i had gained with her, but never got below a 16. this time around, this is my second try and i am running with it. when i put on those jeans tonight i felt incredible. and theyre still a little snug. imagine ho w ill feel in a week or two when they fit well?

today was a big day.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010


14 For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,[a] 15 from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, 16 that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, 17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— 19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
Ephesians 3:14-21

10...But we urge you, brethren, that you increase more and more; 11 that you also aspire to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business, and to work with your own hands, as we commanded you, 12 that you may walk properly toward those who are outside, and that you may lack nothing.
1 Thessalonians 4:10-12

Who Am I in Christ?

I am the salt of the earth (Matt 5:13).
I am the light of the world (Matt 5:14).
I am a child of God (John 1:12).
I am part of the true vine, a channel of Christ’s life (John 15:1, 5).
I am Christ’s friend (John 15:15).
I am chosen and appointed by Christ to bear His fruit (John 15:16).
I am a slave of righteousness (Rom 6:18).
I am enslaved to God (Rom 6:22)
I am a son of God; God is spiritually my Father (Rom 8:14, 15; Gal 3:26; 4:6)
I am a joint heir with Christ, sharing His inheritance with Him (Rom 8:17).
I am a temple—a dwelling place—of God. His Spirit and His life dwell in me (1 Cor 3:16; 6:19).
I am a member of Christ’s Body (1 Cor 12:27; Eph 5:30).
I am a new creation ((2 Cor 5:17).
I am reconciled to God and am a minister of reconciliation (2 Cor 5:18, 19).
I am a son of God and one in Christ (Gal 3:26, 28).
I am an heir of God since I am a son of God (Gal 4:6, 7).
I am a saint (Eph 1:1; 1 Cor 1:2; Phil 1:1; Col 1:2).
I am God’s workmanship—His handiwork—born anew in Christ to do His work (Eph. 2:10).
I am a fellow citizen with the rest of God’s family (Eph 2:19).
I am a prisoner of Christ (Eph 3:1; 4:1).
I am righteous and holy (Eph 4:24).
I am a citizen of heaven, seated in heaven right now (Phil 3:20; Eph 2:6).
I am hidden with Christ in God (Col 3:3).
I am an expression of the life of Christ because He is my life (Col 3:4).
I am chosen of God, holy and dearly loved (Col 3:12; 1 Thess 1:4).
I am a son of light and not of darkness (1 Thess 5:5).
I am a holy partaker of a heavenly calling (Heb 3:1).
I am a partaker of Christ; I share in His life (Heb 3:14).
I am one of God’s living stones, being built up in Christ as a spiritual house (1 Pet 2:5).
I am a member of a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God’s own possession (1 Pet 2:9, 10).
I am an alien and stranger to this world in which I temporarily live (1 Pet 2:11).
I am an enemy of the devil (1 Pet 5:8).
I am a child of God and I will resemble Christ when He returns (1 John 3:1, 2).
I am born of God, and the evil one—the devil—cannot touch me (1 John 5:18).
I am not the great ‘I am’ (Exod 3:14; John 8:24, 25, 58), but by the grace of God, I am what I am (1 Cor 15:10).
From Neil T. Anderson’s Victory Over the Darkness

its getting harder

i knew this would happen. weight loss is not always easy. i am down on myself for making poor choices, and unmotivated to make the changes i really need to see more progress. its dreary out. i want to cuddle on the couch with comfort food. i do not want to pay attention to what that food is. (though i have been really pretty good about making my comfort foods better choices, my servings sizes just arent.) couple that with the lack of gym time ive put in, and we see minimal weight loss.

last wednesday november 3, i weighed 179.2. today, november 10, i weigh 178.6 for a loss of 0.6 pounds this week.

on the positive, i have seen continued loss each week.
on the realistic, half a pound isnt going to get me very far very fast.

so changes:

breakfast every day. a banana and cup of greek yogurt with my sort of decaf coffee
big and filling lunch (like 400 calories big) with 1 treat. treat today was another banana, but i have pumpkin and flax cookies too.
small, portion controlled dinner. i will not have seconds, unless it is of my veggie.
when i want a snack, first drink a glass of water. i know i havent been up to par there, because i have had several headaches cured by a big glass of hydrating water the last few weeks.
this is what i had been sticking pretty closely to for several months, and saw positive changes, so i want to get back to that. today has been good.

devotions in the morning with breakfast. i am absolutely aware that without God up front in my life, i cannot loose the weight. i have tried for years, and ive never done it before. thats what is so different this time around. my second try isnt set only on my shoulders, i have a big help if im willing to ask for it each day. and when i dont, i struggle.

gym time minimum of 3 days, for 30 minutes this week. next week, ill up it again. my time with jason at home has been so limited (as in, 10pm -6am most days) that i just dont want to leave when hes here. but if i dont get that time away, i will crave it later when its not available. his test is over, and hes making an effort to be home by 8 so i have time to go to the gym. i need to take advantage of that.

so last night i did, 38 minutes 3.3 miles 450 calories. i know if i keep it up, i will see change.

thats where im at today. this is where i decide to push through and make it work, because the alternative doesnt get my any closer to the girl i want to be, wearing those red dickies.

edit: i did gym tonight 45 minutes 3.86 miles 515 calories

Thursday, November 4, 2010

hello rec center.

its been five weeks since i was at the gym, and two months since i was there regularly. jason and i chatted last night, now that his test is over, i need him home before 8 at least a couple days a week. that was our deal originally, and now that he had a little more time, i need it back.

so, i went to the gym. 30 minutes 2.56 miles 347 calories. and it was easy. i changed all my setting to fairly high, a little higher than i usually set them, and just went. my heart rate went up, but my muscles felt fine. i dont want to be sore, so i quit at 30 minutes, but im planning to be there again tomorrow (if he gets home from a study session with his project partner in time) or saturday during naps. ive missed it, and i want to go back.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

sleep sleep sleep

i feel like i need oodles of sleep lately. it doesnt help that ive been two days off of caffeine, and after one great night of sleep, george woke up at 430, again. its getting old. so im working on new sleep habits for both of us.

and some new eating habits. breakfast breakfast breakfast. i need to make it a priority! and no more candy. well, less candy. halloween is a killer. and i love tootsie rolls.

one more change, i need to do something each day. i am sitting in at a plateau, and i know moving will make a big difference. ive been pretty slack with jason being so busy, but his test if over now and next week his class project and last test will also be over. then he will be home sooner and i can make time to hit the gym once in a while.

now, for the wednesday business. last week, i weighted 180 pounds. this morning, november 3, i weigh 179.2 pounds. thats 0.8 pounds lost this week. not much. but i am so grateful that there was any at all. i cant tell you how many tootsie rolls and pumpkin cupcakes ive eaten. thats 34.2 pounds lost in 16 weeks. i have 8 weeks left to reach my goal. its not looking very optimistic, but i knew that might be the case. i have 30 pounds to go, and at just shy of 4 pounds a week, i dont see that happening. but i can get close.

so back to work. figure out the sleeping, focus on my eating, and get moving!