so FRUSTRATING! i gained again this week. i now weigh 165. thats a gain of 0.6 pounds. march is feeling a lot like january did.

i know i could have made better choices earlier in the week, but i really did well for most of it. so im bummed.

a little competition

so last night jason and i did 15 sit ups each.
after my work out tonight (30 minutes 2.77 miles 351 calories) i came home and did 20 sit ups. he matched my 20, and did 5 more. so did i. he did 7 more. so did i. he did 8 more, so did i. (thats 40 sit ups.) then i told him he had to quit, i didnt want him to be too sore to do some with me tomorrow. :D

logging work outs

i have two work outs to log, one from last wednesday (eep. sorry thats so late. i thought i was forgetting something!) 20 minutes 1.78 miles 225 calories. after i finished on the elliptical i just wanted to run. so, i ran around the rec center parking lot, then drove home, and ran half mile around the block. it felt GOOD.

then tonight, i did 30 minutes 2.68 miles 336 calories at the gym and when i got home i ran again. i did three laps around the loop, which should total 1 mile with the home and back trip. i will check it though. but, i ran the whole thing. and i could have kept going. oh boy that felt nice. also, i did sit ups with jason tonight. 15 of them. i dont think id ever done sit ups before. it was actually kind of fun! (dont look at me like that.) so i think we will do that again, build some muscle where im burning all this fat. :)

it was a good night. (and potty training is going SO MUCH BETTER.)

the energy suck: potty training.

164.4 pounds. i gained 0.4 pounds this week. i have not been diligent about exercising and eating carefully. ive not made specifically poor choices, but these last pounds are just clinging on, and i need to be painfully aware of my actions to get them off. and its so hard. really.

(also, i am trying to potty train emma right now, and that just zaps my energy. i could have gone to the gym last night, and didnt because i just couldnt get up the energy to change my clothes and go. i need to prioritize, and make the time, knowing at the end of the week, it WILL pay off. i just have to push through the moment. thats what i need to remember this week, push through the moment.)

you are more than the choices that you make
you are more than the sum of your past mistakes

i love this song. will you tube it when i get home again.

its been two days now, and i still havent logged my workout. oops.

on thursday i asked jesse to keep the kids for me (because i knew jason had a late night ahead at work, i was feeling stressed, and we have busy weekends so i wanted to squeeze it in.) he was willing, and i went to the gym at 6pm. i dont have my phone close by, so ill have to edit the details later, but i did 30 minutes 2.something miles and 220ish calories. on the treadmill. i ran for the first 15 minutes, and it felt really good. i run funny, so my back aches afterward, but it is nice to be able to run. it takes a lot more effort than the elliptical does, because i have gotten used to the elliptical and can go pretty fast on it. i cant make the same time running. i am looking forward to running with the stroller again though. sunshine and pushing the kids to the park and back sounds really nice about now.

today is the day.

i needed a clean pair of pants. there were none in the closet. i saw my red mini skirt and though, "hmm, where are my dickies?"

i stepped into the loose legs, pulled the skinny waist over my hips, and then (this has always been the part where reality comes back) they buttoned. and zipped. and im comfortable.

I AM WEARING MY RED DICKIES. and for old times sake, im wearing them with a bright blue shirt, and i will put on my pink eye shadow whenever i finally get to comb my hair and brush my teeth today. thats what i wore on my first date with jason.

the dickies fit. do you hear me? they FIT. its a good day.