looks like i covered june at least. so how about the last 11 days?
july 1 was the race, so got that.
july 3rd i drove the kids to cascade (look at that, being all adventurous...) to gregg and ginas cabin. im counting a 1 mile walk around the beach and docks.
july 4th, same 1 mile walk. and the kids caught fish! it was a nice little 24 hour getaway.
thursday july 5th, i totaled 6 miles on the treadmill. i hopped on it three different times during the day to get it in, but thats the beauty. i CAN break it up into whatever time i have.
sunday july 8, 2.6 mile walk
monday july 9, 4 mile run. RUN. the whole thing. no walking. it felt easy and good. also, the first 5k was ten minutes faster than the 5k we ran on the 1st in the heat. and we RAN all of that one too.
tuesday july 10, 4 mile walk chatting with jason about the day at 10pm. it was a get-it-in workout.
and that makes today wednesday. i didnt weigh last week because i was in cascade and gave myself a pass, but this morning i did, and i am at 169.4 pounds. thats 0.4 down from two weeks ago.
one more thing.
saturday is july 14th.
its been nearly two years since i started out on my second try. this year had more bumps than last, with 16 weeks of jason working nearly full time and taking 16 incredibly difficult credits. those weeks included a 15 pound weight gain for me while i stressed and ate my way through it. it was hard. painful. more than once i felt like i was at the beginning again. but im not. i SURVIVED those 16 weeks, and now im doing what i need to do to lose it again.
jason finishes school in december. thats the month ive been looking towards for almost two years because thats when we decided we would try for another baby. my heart races just thinking about it. ive known with certainty when the time was right to try for emma and for georgie. emma was my prayer baby. i prayed for her for 2 years before she was finally concieved. and georgie was my praise. my heart was heavy that it was time to have another and i was able to praise God the first month we tried. i knew the wait would be long this time, and i was in no rush. God has been faithful to make it clear to me when its time, and as december nears i have noticed my desire grow. its still 5 months away, but God is nesting a place in my heart for another.
so- as he prepares my heart, i want to prepare my body. i am setting a new goal. an old goal. 21 weeks for 21 pounds. december 5 jason will be finishing finals and i plan to hit my goal just in time to get pregnant again. so there it is.
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Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Friday, June 15, 2012
Romans 12
wow. romans chapter 12 might be my new favorite passage of scripture. i started out ready to share just verses 1 and 2, but as i continued to read theres just so much more! so here are the first couple, and a link to go read the rest of the chapter.
Romans 12:1-2
Romans 12:1-2
And so, dear brothers and sisters,
I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all he has done
for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice—the kind he will find
acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him. 2 Don’t
copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you
into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to
know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.
thats just what i needed this morning. its one of the verses that changed the way i think about my body nearly two years ago and it still hits tender spots in my heart.
also, ive been looking for a memory verse for emma, and i found it.
Romans 12:10
Love each other with genuine affection, and take delight in honoring each other.
i think thats what she needs to hear right now. :)
last night i kept the kids up so jason and i could take them for a run. he was late getting home because hed run an errand for me, so the kids and i took off without him and made him catch up. we ran 3 and walked a 4th so he could hit all 5 points for the day. its going to be tough but he can still hit 1500 for the year if he has 5 points almost every day.
it was a good day yesterday.
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
vacation recap, wednesday, and the plan
i updated about last saturday, but there is still a lot to fill in from the 10 or so days since then.
sunday we churched and rested at home, along with packing a separate bag for disneyland and for the kids while we would be gone.
monday we got up at 4 and drove to anaheim. we checked in at the hotel and walked in to california adventure at 1230pm. and we walked and walked and walked. we also ate a lot of deliciously terrible food. and some huge 2$ apples. and more terrible food. it was wonderful.
tuesday we got into the park an hour early, and walked. and walked. (i am actually really glad we did so much back and forth wandering, or i would have gained more weight than i did over the week.)
wednesday morning we checked out of our hotel and headed back to disney land for our last day. we did all our shopping, some last rides, and stayed in the park till just before the parade at 7. then another long drive back to pittsburg and we were home around 2am. i did not weigh myself.
thursday we walked to starbucks and to grandpa georges house for a visit, then home again. (2.5 miles)
friday we hung out at home to recover from our busy week. i convinced jason to pull some weeds in his parents back yard, and i helped the kids tie dye some shirts after dinner. at bath time for the kids i finally weighed myself. i weighed 178.4 pounds. it was awful. i told jason i wanted to get in another run on saturday and that we would need to get a schedule down and a plan on the drive home sunday. that weight was unacceptable.
saturday after breakfast we drove to grandpa georges house and the whole family walked the duck pond together. we had a lot of fun seeing the baby ducks, loads of turtles and feeding all of them. when that was over, we fed the kids lunch and jason and i left for a run while they napped. we did hill repeats and totaled about 2.25 miles. we all went out to chilis for dinner, and after dinner went for a walk around the neighborhood. larry, joshua and mark rode bikes, reaann, emma and georgie were strollered and the rest of us walked. we were out for about 45 minutes at a pretty quick pace. it was a really nice walk.
sunday after church we stayed for lunch then headed back to idaho. it took us 11.5 hours, as usual, so we got home at 2:30am.
and that brings me to yesterday. monday morning we all caught up on a little bit of sleep. jason didnt go to work till 8, the kids slept till nine (!) and i was able to sneak out some extra rest on the couch till 830. it was so nice. emma went to school while gerogie and i grocery shopped and put away laundry from our trip. jason was home in time for dinner (! again.) and made it to the last small group of the summer (!!). its so nice out in the evenings, and the kids are used to being up late anyways that when we got home from small group at 830 we took the kids for a three mile run around the neighborhood. it was hard.
i have been trying to figure out a new approach to getting in my bible study, exercise, and nutritious eating because what ive been doing the last 6 months is clearly not working. on our run last night while i was talking at jason i realized that last time i started running outside i already had a solid base of good health from working out in the gym and i eased into it on a treadmill for two weeks. this time around ive had a solid 16 weeks without any regularity and now ive just jumped into outdoor running. its a whole different story than last time. i need to be aware of that, and adjust my ideas and goals accordingly.
i have written out a new plan to follow, and meal plans for jason and i as well. (he gained more than ten pounds in the last two weeks.) so far so good, as i weighed myself last night (and this morning) and am now at 173.4 pounds. thats only 2 pounds over in the last two weeks, and i feel like its much more manageable. i did well yesterday keeping my meals in check, and so far so good today. if it becomes more of an issue, ive already created a food journal to make myself acutely aware of the calories i am taking in.
in the coming couple of months, jason and i both have some goals to meet that i will detail a little later. in many ways it feels like starting all over again, but i guess thats kind of the point. as long as im willing, i can always give myself a second try.
sunday we churched and rested at home, along with packing a separate bag for disneyland and for the kids while we would be gone.
monday we got up at 4 and drove to anaheim. we checked in at the hotel and walked in to california adventure at 1230pm. and we walked and walked and walked. we also ate a lot of deliciously terrible food. and some huge 2$ apples. and more terrible food. it was wonderful.
tuesday we got into the park an hour early, and walked. and walked. (i am actually really glad we did so much back and forth wandering, or i would have gained more weight than i did over the week.)
wednesday morning we checked out of our hotel and headed back to disney land for our last day. we did all our shopping, some last rides, and stayed in the park till just before the parade at 7. then another long drive back to pittsburg and we were home around 2am. i did not weigh myself.
thursday we walked to starbucks and to grandpa georges house for a visit, then home again. (2.5 miles)
friday we hung out at home to recover from our busy week. i convinced jason to pull some weeds in his parents back yard, and i helped the kids tie dye some shirts after dinner. at bath time for the kids i finally weighed myself. i weighed 178.4 pounds. it was awful. i told jason i wanted to get in another run on saturday and that we would need to get a schedule down and a plan on the drive home sunday. that weight was unacceptable.
saturday after breakfast we drove to grandpa georges house and the whole family walked the duck pond together. we had a lot of fun seeing the baby ducks, loads of turtles and feeding all of them. when that was over, we fed the kids lunch and jason and i left for a run while they napped. we did hill repeats and totaled about 2.25 miles. we all went out to chilis for dinner, and after dinner went for a walk around the neighborhood. larry, joshua and mark rode bikes, reaann, emma and georgie were strollered and the rest of us walked. we were out for about 45 minutes at a pretty quick pace. it was a really nice walk.
sunday after church we stayed for lunch then headed back to idaho. it took us 11.5 hours, as usual, so we got home at 2:30am.
and that brings me to yesterday. monday morning we all caught up on a little bit of sleep. jason didnt go to work till 8, the kids slept till nine (!) and i was able to sneak out some extra rest on the couch till 830. it was so nice. emma went to school while gerogie and i grocery shopped and put away laundry from our trip. jason was home in time for dinner (! again.) and made it to the last small group of the summer (!!). its so nice out in the evenings, and the kids are used to being up late anyways that when we got home from small group at 830 we took the kids for a three mile run around the neighborhood. it was hard.
i have been trying to figure out a new approach to getting in my bible study, exercise, and nutritious eating because what ive been doing the last 6 months is clearly not working. on our run last night while i was talking at jason i realized that last time i started running outside i already had a solid base of good health from working out in the gym and i eased into it on a treadmill for two weeks. this time around ive had a solid 16 weeks without any regularity and now ive just jumped into outdoor running. its a whole different story than last time. i need to be aware of that, and adjust my ideas and goals accordingly.
i have written out a new plan to follow, and meal plans for jason and i as well. (he gained more than ten pounds in the last two weeks.) so far so good, as i weighed myself last night (and this morning) and am now at 173.4 pounds. thats only 2 pounds over in the last two weeks, and i feel like its much more manageable. i did well yesterday keeping my meals in check, and so far so good today. if it becomes more of an issue, ive already created a food journal to make myself acutely aware of the calories i am taking in.
in the coming couple of months, jason and i both have some goals to meet that i will detail a little later. in many ways it feels like starting all over again, but i guess thats kind of the point. as long as im willing, i can always give myself a second try.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
shoes, old posts, exercise, taking responsibility.
im considering minimalist shoes. ive heard a lot about them, and lately they are starting to look more like normal shoes (because looks are so important... ha.) reading another mother runner's post on merrell's new shoes got me thinking about the kind of shoes i wear in general. the description of zero drop soles fits my toms perfectly. and they are so comfortable because i dont feel like im wearing shoes at all.
isnt that the point of minimalist shoes?
i have a groupon for shu's that im going to use to replace my running shoes. mine arent dead yet, but i have a lot of miles on them and id like to continue to wear them for long walking days and workouts while i ease into a new pair. especially if that new pair is a minimalist one.
i spent some time last night (after taking a half hour nap with emma when i put her to bed) reading through the last year of posts and looking for some inspiration. i found several posts that either reminded me how far ive come, or resonated with where im at now, or kicked me in the butt to get my act together again.
when i am stressed, i do not get enough sleep. i dont eat well and i eat too much. i munch when im tired, and im always tired. i snack when im lonely and when im worn out from a busy day. because i eat poorly, and im lacking sleep, i have no energy. im not active enough and that just perpetuates the cycle.
i am trying to interrupt the cycle. im trying to do it as a single parent because jason is so swamped with work and school i feel like i cant ask him to come home in time for me to go to the gym. and by "in time" i mean by 9pm. the gym closes at 10. so what do i do? figure out another way. i mean, if this is important to me, and clearly IT IS, then i need to step up my responsibility and take care of myself.
i havent recorded any exercise for march, but i have been doing it.
march 3, 3.25 miles and 10 minutes on the stair master
march 4, 1.75 mile walk to the park with the kids
march 5, 1.5 mile walk around the neighborhood with all three boys, also several games of bowling and air hockey. (and i am sore from the bowling, so it totally counts.)
march 6, 30 day shred, level one
today is warmer again. i plan to walk the kids, and pop in the shred again. thats what i would have done a year ago.
isnt that the point of minimalist shoes?
i have a groupon for shu's that im going to use to replace my running shoes. mine arent dead yet, but i have a lot of miles on them and id like to continue to wear them for long walking days and workouts while i ease into a new pair. especially if that new pair is a minimalist one.
i spent some time last night (after taking a half hour nap with emma when i put her to bed) reading through the last year of posts and looking for some inspiration. i found several posts that either reminded me how far ive come, or resonated with where im at now, or kicked me in the butt to get my act together again.
when i am stressed, i do not get enough sleep. i dont eat well and i eat too much. i munch when im tired, and im always tired. i snack when im lonely and when im worn out from a busy day. because i eat poorly, and im lacking sleep, i have no energy. im not active enough and that just perpetuates the cycle.
i am trying to interrupt the cycle. im trying to do it as a single parent because jason is so swamped with work and school i feel like i cant ask him to come home in time for me to go to the gym. and by "in time" i mean by 9pm. the gym closes at 10. so what do i do? figure out another way. i mean, if this is important to me, and clearly IT IS, then i need to step up my responsibility and take care of myself.
i havent recorded any exercise for march, but i have been doing it.
march 3, 3.25 miles and 10 minutes on the stair master
march 4, 1.75 mile walk to the park with the kids
march 5, 1.5 mile walk around the neighborhood with all three boys, also several games of bowling and air hockey. (and i am sore from the bowling, so it totally counts.)
march 6, 30 day shred, level one
today is warmer again. i plan to walk the kids, and pop in the shred again. thats what i would have done a year ago.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
several runs lacking in special stregth
with tomorrow being wednesday and my weight needing recorded i decided to put in the time i needed on this post tonight. waiting till tomorrow would just make it that much longer.
(now, my big decision has been do i go in chronological order, or group like things together?)
jason worked on saturday, so i drove the kids in for a sack lunch dinner with him at the office. it was a long day (he got home at 11) but its just a part of the system right now to get through this semester.
we had nursery duty on sunday and played with just georgie and another little boy for the first hour. second hour we found out there was no sunday school and instead of going home, our class took up a table in the fellowship hall and caught up with one another. i told jason in the car on the way home that i was so glad we stayed for sunday school. it was a nice break.
at home we fed the kids and i headed to the gym for my first run in several weeks and set out a plan to keep it slow to prevent coughing. (i am feeling quite a bit better, but do still wheeze and cough.) walk 2 laps, run 3 for 4.5 miles. it was wonderful. i felt like a crazy person giggling to myself listening to another mother runner podcasts (the obgyn and beginner ones) as i ran around the rec. it was wonderful. i really loved all of it. it took me 57 minutes to go those 4.5 miles, but it was still wonderful.
i hit the track again tonight with more on my mind than sunday. this time i had amr q&a on my ipod and couldnt shake the trouble i am having managing my evenings. i am trying to figure out how to spend time with jason (when hes not doing homework. this usually lasts about 10 minutes after he gets home and before he settles down with his books.) and time for myself, reading or browsing the internet or sewing or whatever just for me, and also time at the gym. no, time at the gym does not count as time for me. i described this to jason this evening. the gym is a chore for me. i rank it above dishes, and folding laundry, but below washing laundry.
i have a lot more to say about bible study today, but its getting late. ill end with 1 Kings 18:45-46 45 And soon the sky was black with clouds. A heavy wind brought a terrific rainstorm, and Ahab left quickly for Jezreel. 46 Then the LORD gave special strength to Elijah. He tucked his cloak into his belt[a] and ran ahead of Ahab’s chariot all the way to the entrance of Jezreel.
i looked it up. that run was something between 15 and 25 miles. i cant find a consistent or reliable answer, but its looking like something more than a half marathon and less than a full, at chariot pace. elijah had been consistently faithful to the Lords will for years and had just seen a big win in the form of a small cloud. he ran. and the Lord gave him special strength. (other translations say the hand of the Lord was on him.) i needed this verse today in so many ways. some running related, some more spiritual. in the long run (ha.) im holding on to elijahs faithfulness, and Gods gift of special strength. thats what i need right now, and jason needs it ten fold.
(now, my big decision has been do i go in chronological order, or group like things together?)
jason worked on saturday, so i drove the kids in for a sack lunch dinner with him at the office. it was a long day (he got home at 11) but its just a part of the system right now to get through this semester.
we had nursery duty on sunday and played with just georgie and another little boy for the first hour. second hour we found out there was no sunday school and instead of going home, our class took up a table in the fellowship hall and caught up with one another. i told jason in the car on the way home that i was so glad we stayed for sunday school. it was a nice break.
at home we fed the kids and i headed to the gym for my first run in several weeks and set out a plan to keep it slow to prevent coughing. (i am feeling quite a bit better, but do still wheeze and cough.) walk 2 laps, run 3 for 4.5 miles. it was wonderful. i felt like a crazy person giggling to myself listening to another mother runner podcasts (the obgyn and beginner ones) as i ran around the rec. it was wonderful. i really loved all of it. it took me 57 minutes to go those 4.5 miles, but it was still wonderful.
i hit the track again tonight with more on my mind than sunday. this time i had amr q&a on my ipod and couldnt shake the trouble i am having managing my evenings. i am trying to figure out how to spend time with jason (when hes not doing homework. this usually lasts about 10 minutes after he gets home and before he settles down with his books.) and time for myself, reading or browsing the internet or sewing or whatever just for me, and also time at the gym. no, time at the gym does not count as time for me. i described this to jason this evening. the gym is a chore for me. i rank it above dishes, and folding laundry, but below washing laundry.
i have a lot more to say about bible study today, but its getting late. ill end with 1 Kings 18:45-46 45 And soon the sky was black with clouds. A heavy wind brought a terrific rainstorm, and Ahab left quickly for Jezreel. 46 Then the LORD gave special strength to Elijah. He tucked his cloak into his belt[a] and ran ahead of Ahab’s chariot all the way to the entrance of Jezreel.
i looked it up. that run was something between 15 and 25 miles. i cant find a consistent or reliable answer, but its looking like something more than a half marathon and less than a full, at chariot pace. elijah had been consistently faithful to the Lords will for years and had just seen a big win in the form of a small cloud. he ran. and the Lord gave him special strength. (other translations say the hand of the Lord was on him.) i needed this verse today in so many ways. some running related, some more spiritual. in the long run (ha.) im holding on to elijahs faithfulness, and Gods gift of special strength. thats what i need right now, and jason needs it ten fold.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
the end and the beginning
to wrap up the year nicely, jason stayed home with the kids so that i could spend some last day of the year time at the gym. i did 4o minutes and 3.75 miles on the elliptical while reading grandpas book. i wish grandma had finished it before he died, because there are several things id like to ask him about. but, maybe thats why it wasnt. but that is a whole different story.
and now, its 2012. i smooched jason and we said our happy januarys to one another at 12 while the neighbors lit fireworks. i was determined that this year would have a good start, and i think so was he, we both made time at the gym during naps. i did 40 minutes, 3.75 miles (almost finished with the book now) and he did a mini tri to get in all 5 possible points for today. he came home in such a good mood, with a plan to use one rec center pass each weekend this month.
i make resolutions. i give up things for lent. i tell people about them, and i stay accountable. but, i tend to make then whenever the thought crosses my mind. works out well for me that i figured out a new plan just last week so that i can call it a new years' resolution. so here it is:
in this brand new year i have just a few goals and a calendar. i used to LOVE my calendar. i had a large desk calendar each year with all the important dates transferred from one to the next, appointments, classes, trips, everything. now my life is different and so is my calendar.
this one will have SCHEDULED workouts when i KNOW i will have time made for the gym. this will largely be made possible by jason working around the time i need, and using the day care for georgie while emma is at school (on days i dont have the boys) when i dont have another option.
also, meal planning and less grocery shopping. i tried it out last week, making a list of five or six meals that would provide leftovers and could be made from things i already had on hand, and i have SO enjoyed being able to just pick something off the list to make for the day. now, when i run out of things on the list, or a grocery staple like milk, flour, eggs, i will write a new list and go grocery shopping. im not sure how often i will need to go, because i dont know how long each list will take me. jason will sometimes be home for dinner, and sometimes be packing both lunch and dinner for school. i have a good start on frozen dinners for him after making two crock pot dinners of green enchilada soup and beef stew and because we ate just those two all week, i still have most of my list available.
im not sure that makes any sense at all. my point: i will make a list on the week end days of my large calendar of dinners. when i run out of dinners, i will begin a new list on the next available weekend day. i plan to grocery shop without children in the evenings or on the weekend. this should make evenings in our house much more manageable as i transition to single parenthood for 16 weeks. and once i have a spouse again, it will be nice to have an answer to "what are you making for dinner?"
and finally, i want to READ MORE books. i MISS reading. i havent made time for it, i havent purchased books, i just havent. but im going to. so, add to my list! what should i be reading?
good bye 2011, you were an interesting year. my first half marathon, my first time being sued, my first time wearing my red dickies since jason and i met 6 years and 2 children earlier. a whole year of healthy choices for our whole family.
2012, i have high expectations for you. you will be the last year jason is in school, and personally, i cant wait until youre over.
and now, its 2012. i smooched jason and we said our happy januarys to one another at 12 while the neighbors lit fireworks. i was determined that this year would have a good start, and i think so was he, we both made time at the gym during naps. i did 40 minutes, 3.75 miles (almost finished with the book now) and he did a mini tri to get in all 5 possible points for today. he came home in such a good mood, with a plan to use one rec center pass each weekend this month.
i make resolutions. i give up things for lent. i tell people about them, and i stay accountable. but, i tend to make then whenever the thought crosses my mind. works out well for me that i figured out a new plan just last week so that i can call it a new years' resolution. so here it is:
in this brand new year i have just a few goals and a calendar. i used to LOVE my calendar. i had a large desk calendar each year with all the important dates transferred from one to the next, appointments, classes, trips, everything. now my life is different and so is my calendar.
this one will have SCHEDULED workouts when i KNOW i will have time made for the gym. this will largely be made possible by jason working around the time i need, and using the day care for georgie while emma is at school (on days i dont have the boys) when i dont have another option.
also, meal planning and less grocery shopping. i tried it out last week, making a list of five or six meals that would provide leftovers and could be made from things i already had on hand, and i have SO enjoyed being able to just pick something off the list to make for the day. now, when i run out of things on the list, or a grocery staple like milk, flour, eggs, i will write a new list and go grocery shopping. im not sure how often i will need to go, because i dont know how long each list will take me. jason will sometimes be home for dinner, and sometimes be packing both lunch and dinner for school. i have a good start on frozen dinners for him after making two crock pot dinners of green enchilada soup and beef stew and because we ate just those two all week, i still have most of my list available.
im not sure that makes any sense at all. my point: i will make a list on the week end days of my large calendar of dinners. when i run out of dinners, i will begin a new list on the next available weekend day. i plan to grocery shop without children in the evenings or on the weekend. this should make evenings in our house much more manageable as i transition to single parenthood for 16 weeks. and once i have a spouse again, it will be nice to have an answer to "what are you making for dinner?"
and finally, i want to READ MORE books. i MISS reading. i havent made time for it, i havent purchased books, i just havent. but im going to. so, add to my list! what should i be reading?
good bye 2011, you were an interesting year. my first half marathon, my first time being sued, my first time wearing my red dickies since jason and i met 6 years and 2 children earlier. a whole year of healthy choices for our whole family.
2012, i have high expectations for you. you will be the last year jason is in school, and personally, i cant wait until youre over.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
a warm day in november
this afternoon was beautiful. jason and i took the kids out for a three mile jog (13 minute pace) and enjoyed some sun and conversation while georgie petted emmas fuzzy hood and emma shredded fall leaves over the side of the stroller. the whole thing was really quite nice.
except the reality that this nice warm day in mid november is a complete anomaly and will probably never happen again as storms are headed our way to make this officially a cold winter. saturday evening i told jason i really needed to get to the gym, but i am hording that last pass for a day that i know im really going to need it. because i know its coming. so i think God provided some sunshine today (even though forcast called for snow overnight) so that we could get out together and i wouldnt have to spend that last pass. so thoughtful.
lesson learned though. last winter i really took advantage of the gym and used my pass. in conversation this weekend about the running we had done this week (jason 10+ miles, me 0) i found the words for the situation- the time i spent at the gym saved me from this cold, dry, depressing season of overeating and stress. i know now that i would not have been as successful loosing the extra weight if i had not formed a habit in july and continued at the gym all winter long. and i am so so glad that i did.
(its nice to look back at a situation and think hey, i made the RIGHT choice. look at that. its a much better feeling than looking back at the situation and wishing i could change it all to make something better. i think i need to keep that in mind going into this winter. and i think ill start by going to the gym tomorrow. that rec pass doesnt do me any good in my wallet.)
except the reality that this nice warm day in mid november is a complete anomaly and will probably never happen again as storms are headed our way to make this officially a cold winter. saturday evening i told jason i really needed to get to the gym, but i am hording that last pass for a day that i know im really going to need it. because i know its coming. so i think God provided some sunshine today (even though forcast called for snow overnight) so that we could get out together and i wouldnt have to spend that last pass. so thoughtful.
lesson learned though. last winter i really took advantage of the gym and used my pass. in conversation this weekend about the running we had done this week (jason 10+ miles, me 0) i found the words for the situation- the time i spent at the gym saved me from this cold, dry, depressing season of overeating and stress. i know now that i would not have been as successful loosing the extra weight if i had not formed a habit in july and continued at the gym all winter long. and i am so so glad that i did.
(its nice to look back at a situation and think hey, i made the RIGHT choice. look at that. its a much better feeling than looking back at the situation and wishing i could change it all to make something better. i think i need to keep that in mind going into this winter. and i think ill start by going to the gym tomorrow. that rec pass doesnt do me any good in my wallet.)
Sunday, November 6, 2011
vulnerable
i have been postponing writing this for nearly a week. but, i knew time was coming to get it down after i had a long day to reflect yesterday and then this evening a good conversation with jason about it (while on a three mile run. but thats not the point ive been so twisted up about.) so, here it is.
i have been really struggling with feelings of insecurity, inadequacy, and overall feeling as if im letting every one down. i am not a people-pleaser, and im not sure i ever have been- but i have had a lot of issues related to feeling constantly down on myself, feeling as if i cant do anything right, as if i am not a good enough version of myself.
i have found minor situations creeping up in other areas of my life (an off hand comment turning into an upsetting night of dreams, minor physical insecurities leading to greater overall disapproval of myself) and ive decided not to let them take over my every thought. the solution: write them down to get them out of my head.
tomorrow begins with a confident hope, as a glorious inheritance, and without fear of the future.
i have been really struggling with feelings of insecurity, inadequacy, and overall feeling as if im letting every one down. i am not a people-pleaser, and im not sure i ever have been- but i have had a lot of issues related to feeling constantly down on myself, feeling as if i cant do anything right, as if i am not a good enough version of myself.
i have found minor situations creeping up in other areas of my life (an off hand comment turning into an upsetting night of dreams, minor physical insecurities leading to greater overall disapproval of myself) and ive decided not to let them take over my every thought. the solution: write them down to get them out of my head.
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i am choosing not to give up. i am actively choosing to make a change. and i am not doing it on my own.
Ephesians 3:20
Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
i am not called to a life filled with insecurities. and i never need to question my value. i am Christ's glorious inheritance.
Ephesians 1:18
I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the confident hope he has given to those he called—his holy people who are his rich and glorious inheritance.
so tonight i am admitting to having lived the last several weeks in fear- and tonight i am claiming Proverbs 31:25 as my new reality.
image sourcei am choosing not to give up. i am actively choosing to make a change. and i am not doing it on my own.
Ephesians 3:20
Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
i am not called to a life filled with insecurities. and i never need to question my value. i am Christ's glorious inheritance.
Ephesians 1:18
I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the confident hope he has given to those he called—his holy people who are his rich and glorious inheritance.
so tonight i am admitting to having lived the last several weeks in fear- and tonight i am claiming Proverbs 31:25 as my new reality.
tomorrow begins with a confident hope, as a glorious inheritance, and without fear of the future.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
i was reading in deuteronomy last night, more of moses rehashing everything he said in exodus to the isrealites. these first two verses stood out to me- i like when verses in the Bible say things like "remember this and keep it firmly in mind." seems like a pretty obvious one that i ought to pay attention to.
the others are from pastors message on sunday that was actually about God and government, but they fit so well here that i wrote them down.
Deuteronomy 4:39-40
“So remember this and keep it firmly in mind: The Lord is God both in heaven and on earth, and there is no other. If you obey all the decrees and commands I am giving you today, all will be well with you and your children. I am giving you these instructions so you will enjoy a long life in the land the Lord your God is giving you for all time.”
Romans 8:28-29
And we know that God causes everything to work together[a] for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters.
2 Corinthians 3:18
So all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord—who is the Spirit—makes us more and more like him as we are changed into his glorious image.
Romans 12:1
And so, dear brothers and sisters, I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all he has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice—the kind he will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him.
the others are from pastors message on sunday that was actually about God and government, but they fit so well here that i wrote them down.
Deuteronomy 4:39-40
“So remember this and keep it firmly in mind: The Lord is God both in heaven and on earth, and there is no other. If you obey all the decrees and commands I am giving you today, all will be well with you and your children. I am giving you these instructions so you will enjoy a long life in the land the Lord your God is giving you for all time.”
Romans 8:28-29
And we know that God causes everything to work together[a] for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters.
2 Corinthians 3:18
So all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord—who is the Spirit—makes us more and more like him as we are changed into his glorious image.
Romans 12:1
And so, dear brothers and sisters, I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all he has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice—the kind he will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
the race: summer breeze half marathon 13.1 miles
friday morning at 1130 we left the house to drive to california. we arrived at 10 pacific time and quickly went to bed. the race was at 8am saturday morning, and hour from home.
i was up at 520. ate a bowl of oatmeal and a banana for breakfast, gathered the kids and loaded up into the yukon to drive to the race. all we needed to do at the race was to pick up our timing chips and warm up (and get over our nerves.)
i felt good. i stretched out my legs and did a little warm up jog with katie, no pain the whole time. i was excited to get to run again, and to be able to at least start out with katie for the first couple miles.
i prayed for us in the coral before the gun, for a pain free run with quick times. and God answers prayer.
a couple miles into the race, katie i and were hanging out at a 10:15/10:30 pace and feeling great. the temperature was good, fog blocked the hot sun, just a light breeze instead of a nasty headwind, and my leg felt fine- like it was never injured.
the aid stations were so nice to have, especially the farthest one out that was more than three miles from the one before. and it had skittles. i love skittles, but i have never enjoyed them as much as i did at 6.5 miles on saturday. except maybe at 10.5 miles. they were pretty great then too.
at ten miles, i let katie go on ahead. i wanted to turn it down a little, but kept her in my sight through the finish.
i was tired, but in good spirits at ten miles. i knew i could keep running. near 13 jason came and caught up with me to run the last bit, it was a nice surprise. when i knew the finish was close, i picked up the pace again. the finish is on the grass across the park from the path we ran on, and as soon as i hit the grass i sprinted in to the arch.
it felt good to speed up, and to know i would be finished in just seconds.
i did it. i ran all 13.1 miles. it was as if i had never been injured. but not only that, i did it much faster that i imagined i might be able to.
266th out of 339. 2:24:08, an 11 minute pace. fantastic.
and we all really did have a great time.
i was up at 520. ate a bowl of oatmeal and a banana for breakfast, gathered the kids and loaded up into the yukon to drive to the race. all we needed to do at the race was to pick up our timing chips and warm up (and get over our nerves.)
i felt good. i stretched out my legs and did a little warm up jog with katie, no pain the whole time. i was excited to get to run again, and to be able to at least start out with katie for the first couple miles.
i prayed for us in the coral before the gun, for a pain free run with quick times. and God answers prayer.
a couple miles into the race, katie i and were hanging out at a 10:15/10:30 pace and feeling great. the temperature was good, fog blocked the hot sun, just a light breeze instead of a nasty headwind, and my leg felt fine- like it was never injured.
the aid stations were so nice to have, especially the farthest one out that was more than three miles from the one before. and it had skittles. i love skittles, but i have never enjoyed them as much as i did at 6.5 miles on saturday. except maybe at 10.5 miles. they were pretty great then too.
at ten miles, i let katie go on ahead. i wanted to turn it down a little, but kept her in my sight through the finish.
i was tired, but in good spirits at ten miles. i knew i could keep running. near 13 jason came and caught up with me to run the last bit, it was a nice surprise. when i knew the finish was close, i picked up the pace again. the finish is on the grass across the park from the path we ran on, and as soon as i hit the grass i sprinted in to the arch.
it felt good to speed up, and to know i would be finished in just seconds.
i did it. i ran all 13.1 miles. it was as if i had never been injured. but not only that, i did it much faster that i imagined i might be able to.
266th out of 339. 2:24:08, an 11 minute pace. fantastic.
and we all really did have a great time.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
only 5 to go!
i stepped on the scale this morning and saw that i had gained 147 pounds. :|
just kidding.
kind of.
our scale has a memory setting. i use number 1, jason uses number 2. once in a while when the kids are playing with it they time it just right and mess up our settings. we dont always notice until after the reading shows our current weight- it then shows a gain or loss of whatever the difference is from the previous setting. todays difference was 147.0 pounds. yikes.
so i did some math. last week i weighed 156.4 pounds (after gaining almost 2 pounds), and this morning i weigh 153.2 pounds- a real loss of 3.2 pounds. that feels pretty good. this week i ran again, i lost some weight again... there is a lot going on in our little corner, so it really is nice to have a couple things working in my favor today.
on another note-
i have been reading numbers. if you remember, i started in 1 corinthians and have worked my way to the end of the new testament and back around the beginning. numbers isnt just the story of how many fighting men are in the people if israel, its also the story of the deaths of the people God has trusted to lead the people to the promised land.
i didnt know that God told aaron to go to the top of a particular mountain and there he would die. people talk about what it might be like to know the place and the time... im pretty sure i wouldnt enjoy it. aaron was the high priest (i think) and as such, must remain ceremonially clean at all times. if he were to become unclean, his priestly garments would also be unclean. thats not allowed. his clothes were specially made of fine materials and adorned and could not be discarded or washed like other clothes that were made unclean. my point: aaron couldnt die while wearing his priestly garments or they would be made unclean having touched a dead body.
so moses, aaron, and aarons son all go up the mountain together. aaron removes his clothes and moses places them on eleazer, aarons son, the new high priest. and then aaron dies.
just like that?
im not sure how i feel about that. and even more, once he is dead, moses and especially eleazar cant touch him (or carry his body down the mountain to be buried) or they would become unclean. did they even cover his body with stones? i dont know. but its really interesting to think about the details, and im sure God had it all figured out.
a similar story is that of moses. God told him it was his time to die- to go to a certain place (i dont remember if it was the top of a mountain, or over the jordan... cant remember where) but to go there, and look at all the land that he had given to the israelites and once he had seen it all, he would die.
i talked to jason about that last night. his comment, how slowly or quickly do you think moses scanned the land? knowing that when he had seen it all, he would die. he had been with God on a regular basis, i wonder if it was kind of no big deal to him?
so yeah, numbers. give it a read some time. get through the counting of troops and some sacrifices and there is a lot of good stuff in there.
just kidding.
kind of.
our scale has a memory setting. i use number 1, jason uses number 2. once in a while when the kids are playing with it they time it just right and mess up our settings. we dont always notice until after the reading shows our current weight- it then shows a gain or loss of whatever the difference is from the previous setting. todays difference was 147.0 pounds. yikes.
so i did some math. last week i weighed 156.4 pounds (after gaining almost 2 pounds), and this morning i weigh 153.2 pounds- a real loss of 3.2 pounds. that feels pretty good. this week i ran again, i lost some weight again... there is a lot going on in our little corner, so it really is nice to have a couple things working in my favor today.
on another note-
i have been reading numbers. if you remember, i started in 1 corinthians and have worked my way to the end of the new testament and back around the beginning. numbers isnt just the story of how many fighting men are in the people if israel, its also the story of the deaths of the people God has trusted to lead the people to the promised land.
i didnt know that God told aaron to go to the top of a particular mountain and there he would die. people talk about what it might be like to know the place and the time... im pretty sure i wouldnt enjoy it. aaron was the high priest (i think) and as such, must remain ceremonially clean at all times. if he were to become unclean, his priestly garments would also be unclean. thats not allowed. his clothes were specially made of fine materials and adorned and could not be discarded or washed like other clothes that were made unclean. my point: aaron couldnt die while wearing his priestly garments or they would be made unclean having touched a dead body.
so moses, aaron, and aarons son all go up the mountain together. aaron removes his clothes and moses places them on eleazer, aarons son, the new high priest. and then aaron dies.
just like that?
im not sure how i feel about that. and even more, once he is dead, moses and especially eleazar cant touch him (or carry his body down the mountain to be buried) or they would become unclean. did they even cover his body with stones? i dont know. but its really interesting to think about the details, and im sure God had it all figured out.
a similar story is that of moses. God told him it was his time to die- to go to a certain place (i dont remember if it was the top of a mountain, or over the jordan... cant remember where) but to go there, and look at all the land that he had given to the israelites and once he had seen it all, he would die.
i talked to jason about that last night. his comment, how slowly or quickly do you think moses scanned the land? knowing that when he had seen it all, he would die. he had been with God on a regular basis, i wonder if it was kind of no big deal to him?
so yeah, numbers. give it a read some time. get through the counting of troops and some sacrifices and there is a lot of good stuff in there.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
a legacy of athleticism
is that the right word? im not sure, but you get what im going for, right?
jason and i have been talking a lot lately about the difference in our lives. tonight it was about his 7 mile run. i told him, its just 7 miles, youll be fine. he laughed and said what a difference that now we say "just 7 miles." a year ago, that was a killer. his 6 miles were rough last august for his last triathlon, and the farthest id run in recent years (and possibly ever) was when i was running with heidi (was emma around? now i dont remember, but i think so...) and we went 2-4 miles at a time. 7 would have killed me. but not now.
growing up, he played a lot of team sports. he was athletic in high school and in college. i played volley ball for all of jr high and half of high school, and as an early adult i had a pretty active life walking around for shopping or errands in eugene. but neither one of us had active parents. athletics were a part of team sports in school and they stayed with that time in our lives. that wont be the case for our kids.
george and emma, and whatever kiddos are still to come have parents who are intentionally physically active on a regular basis for the purposes of good health, and enjoyment! its not just about loosing weight (thats maybe the spark, or the first draft, but not the whole story, or the coals the keep the fire hot) its about finding something active that we enjoy, and making it an integral part of our daily lives.
we have been doing a lot of studying lately in several different parts of our lives (college classes for jason, run training, injury, weight management and healthy eating for me, bible study together and apart, leadership through role modeling with the teens) and have noticed changes take place over the last year in our attitudes and parenting and so many things. not a very eloquent sentence, i know, but im having a hard time putting a feeling into words. its just been pretty great to make these changes now, and to know that the impact they have on our kids will be a lasting one.
whew. okay, that said, i did level 2 again today. that makes 3 days in a row. its pretty tough, but in a good sort of way. the plan is to do it again in the morning with jason as we start our first week (of 3) of summer. we are testing out a couple new schedules and morning work outs are one of them.
jason and i have been talking a lot lately about the difference in our lives. tonight it was about his 7 mile run. i told him, its just 7 miles, youll be fine. he laughed and said what a difference that now we say "just 7 miles." a year ago, that was a killer. his 6 miles were rough last august for his last triathlon, and the farthest id run in recent years (and possibly ever) was when i was running with heidi (was emma around? now i dont remember, but i think so...) and we went 2-4 miles at a time. 7 would have killed me. but not now.
growing up, he played a lot of team sports. he was athletic in high school and in college. i played volley ball for all of jr high and half of high school, and as an early adult i had a pretty active life walking around for shopping or errands in eugene. but neither one of us had active parents. athletics were a part of team sports in school and they stayed with that time in our lives. that wont be the case for our kids.
george and emma, and whatever kiddos are still to come have parents who are intentionally physically active on a regular basis for the purposes of good health, and enjoyment! its not just about loosing weight (thats maybe the spark, or the first draft, but not the whole story, or the coals the keep the fire hot) its about finding something active that we enjoy, and making it an integral part of our daily lives.
we have been doing a lot of studying lately in several different parts of our lives (college classes for jason, run training, injury, weight management and healthy eating for me, bible study together and apart, leadership through role modeling with the teens) and have noticed changes take place over the last year in our attitudes and parenting and so many things. not a very eloquent sentence, i know, but im having a hard time putting a feeling into words. its just been pretty great to make these changes now, and to know that the impact they have on our kids will be a lasting one.
whew. okay, that said, i did level 2 again today. that makes 3 days in a row. its pretty tough, but in a good sort of way. the plan is to do it again in the morning with jason as we start our first week (of 3) of summer. we are testing out a couple new schedules and morning work outs are one of them.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
10k+
im off to run my two mile loop of the neighborhood three times. ill let you know how it goes!
final time 1:09 for 6.26 miles. that went really very well. my last (and only previous 10k) was almost 78 minutes. i tried out a new perspective tonight (and running clothes, my skirt and a cotton tank) and kept negative self talk out of the run. several times i had to literally shake it off, but i felt much better throughout than before.
final time 1:09 for 6.26 miles. that went really very well. my last (and only previous 10k) was almost 78 minutes. i tried out a new perspective tonight (and running clothes, my skirt and a cotton tank) and kept negative self talk out of the run. several times i had to literally shake it off, but i felt much better throughout than before.
one year
tomorrow morning, around 10, marks exactly one year since i first sat down on the couch and cried out. i sat crossed legged in tears after a hard morning with the kids and feeling so completely lost and sent an email to jason.
sarah fitch to Jason
show details 7/14/10
date Wed, Jul 14, 2010 at 9:42 AM
subject im having an emotional day today
mailed-by gmail.com
im cry-y today. i miss the girl i used to be, and im feeling a little trapped at home, and im frustrated. i know you are super busy, and i have all this extra time at home- but i cant use that time however i want because i have these two little people to schedule and tag along with me. can we sit down and figure out some time for me to have a break, even if its just three or four days a week?
i need you to encourage me, and tell me i am worth the effort because im feeling very low and discouraged. if we can make time for your work outs, and your classes, and changing your habits, then we can make time for mine too, right?
i want to be a better wife for you, and a better mom for our kids, and to do that i need to take better care of myself.
i love you, and could use a hug.
sarah
that email was the beginning of a change in my life. i set a goal to loose 65 pounds. i didnt do it by the end of the year, and i didnt do it by my birthday, and one year later im still not there- but i have made a change. today is wednesday, and this morning i weigh 156.4 pounds. no gain, no loss this week, but i have lost 57 pounds in 12 months. i am 8 pounds from my goal and as i work towards it i have changed my focus to running. its not my favorite thing, but two people who have been a great encouragement to me love it and its my turn to support them. jason and katie and i are running a half marathon august 27th in san leandro california.
so how have i changed in the last year? there are the basics, like a general knowledge of food components that i need and need in moderation, or tricks for making delicious (but high calorie low nutrition) foods into foods that are actually GOOD for me. i also dont long to be that girl anymore. ive become this girl who runs! who makes self care a priority, who CLIMBED A MOUNTAIN WITH A KID ON HER BACK!
what a year it has been. cant wait to see the changes in my life, and the lives of those around me over the next year.
sarah fitch to Jason
show details 7/14/10
date Wed, Jul 14, 2010 at 9:42 AM
subject im having an emotional day today
mailed-by gmail.com
im cry-y today. i miss the girl i used to be, and im feeling a little trapped at home, and im frustrated. i know you are super busy, and i have all this extra time at home- but i cant use that time however i want because i have these two little people to schedule and tag along with me. can we sit down and figure out some time for me to have a break, even if its just three or four days a week?
i need you to encourage me, and tell me i am worth the effort because im feeling very low and discouraged. if we can make time for your work outs, and your classes, and changing your habits, then we can make time for mine too, right?
i want to be a better wife for you, and a better mom for our kids, and to do that i need to take better care of myself.
i love you, and could use a hug.
sarah
that email was the beginning of a change in my life. i set a goal to loose 65 pounds. i didnt do it by the end of the year, and i didnt do it by my birthday, and one year later im still not there- but i have made a change. today is wednesday, and this morning i weigh 156.4 pounds. no gain, no loss this week, but i have lost 57 pounds in 12 months. i am 8 pounds from my goal and as i work towards it i have changed my focus to running. its not my favorite thing, but two people who have been a great encouragement to me love it and its my turn to support them. jason and katie and i are running a half marathon august 27th in san leandro california.
so how have i changed in the last year? there are the basics, like a general knowledge of food components that i need and need in moderation, or tricks for making delicious (but high calorie low nutrition) foods into foods that are actually GOOD for me. i also dont long to be that girl anymore. ive become this girl who runs! who makes self care a priority, who CLIMBED A MOUNTAIN WITH A KID ON HER BACK!
what a year it has been. cant wait to see the changes in my life, and the lives of those around me over the next year.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
motivation tags
i have 10 pounds to loose to hit my initial goal. it is not a lot of weight but i have had ten pounds to loose for three months.
this week ive been searching for some motivation and new tactics at attaining this goal. ive journaled foods that ive eaten (and noticed that i really need to make some healthy cookies again- that seems to be my 2-300 calorie suck every day) and started using work out videos to get some calories burned on days i cant/ or dont want to run. this morning i re-read all the posts tagged "motivation." its been almost a year and my life has dramatically changed. sometimes in the rut i forget that.
eleven months ago i weighed 213.4 pounds and last wednesday i weighed 160.4 pounds. thats 53 pounds that i have lost and maintained for nearly a year. i have gained a couple of times, but i have not gained any amount that stayed on. each time the scale went back up- i made the choice to do what i needed to and loose those pounds a second time. that is an accomplishment. that is a life style change. even if it takes me a while still to loose those ten pounds (not that i want it to) i know i can because my life has changed.
breakfast: coffee with sf peppermint and fat free 1/2 and 1/2, two pieces of bountiful basket toast with cream cheese and sf raspberry jam, bowl of cantaloupe
this week ive been searching for some motivation and new tactics at attaining this goal. ive journaled foods that ive eaten (and noticed that i really need to make some healthy cookies again- that seems to be my 2-300 calorie suck every day) and started using work out videos to get some calories burned on days i cant/ or dont want to run. this morning i re-read all the posts tagged "motivation." its been almost a year and my life has dramatically changed. sometimes in the rut i forget that.
eleven months ago i weighed 213.4 pounds and last wednesday i weighed 160.4 pounds. thats 53 pounds that i have lost and maintained for nearly a year. i have gained a couple of times, but i have not gained any amount that stayed on. each time the scale went back up- i made the choice to do what i needed to and loose those pounds a second time. that is an accomplishment. that is a life style change. even if it takes me a while still to loose those ten pounds (not that i want it to) i know i can because my life has changed.
breakfast: coffee with sf peppermint and fat free 1/2 and 1/2, two pieces of bountiful basket toast with cream cheese and sf raspberry jam, bowl of cantaloupe
Friday, June 10, 2011
9 month before and after
im in the need of a little extra motivation. (some sunshine would also be nice, but ill take what i can get right now.) so here are two photos, taken september 3, 2010 and june 3, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
25/25th or something close to that
or not actually that close to either one, considering that today is the 27th, and i lost a total of 13.4 pounds. i was 174 pounds the first week of february when jason, katie and i started, and this morning i weighed 160.6 pounds. (thats a 3 pound loss this week, and i am pretty proud of myself.) the end goal is still 148, so i have 12.4 to go. 12 pounds is not a lot. i can do that.
(i should add, jason lost a total of 30 pounds. way to be an overachiever.)
in other news, i ran 3 miles yesterday in 33 minutes. (do the math... thats 11 minutes miles!) and this afternoon i did 4 miles in 42 minutes. my first two were just under ten minute miles, and the second two at eleven. i am getting faster, now i need to focus more on my endurance and adding distance. time for another long run soon.
(i should add, jason lost a total of 30 pounds. way to be an overachiever.)
in other news, i ran 3 miles yesterday in 33 minutes. (do the math... thats 11 minutes miles!) and this afternoon i did 4 miles in 42 minutes. my first two were just under ten minute miles, and the second two at eleven. i am getting faster, now i need to focus more on my endurance and adding distance. time for another long run soon.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
i am so hard core
ha. who am i kidding?
i did FEEL pretty hard core for the 16 minutes i ran yesterday though. i turned 26 yesterday. i did the two things i typically try to do on my birthday: buy something for someone else, and do something just for myself, but i did a lot of atypical things too. i went for a run before dinner. outdoors. in the pouring rain and hail. with a headwind. and i ran uphill. and i liked it.
so heres to being 26 and making the better choice even with sometimes i dont feel like it.
i did FEEL pretty hard core for the 16 minutes i ran yesterday though. i turned 26 yesterday. i did the two things i typically try to do on my birthday: buy something for someone else, and do something just for myself, but i did a lot of atypical things too. i went for a run before dinner. outdoors. in the pouring rain and hail. with a headwind. and i ran uphill. and i liked it.
so heres to being 26 and making the better choice even with sometimes i dont feel like it.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
10k
i ran a 10k last night in 77:46. i had to remind myself often that my goal was completion, not speed. that i wanted to run as much as i could, not as fast as i could.
i still need new socks, and probably new shoes.
under arm chafing of my bingo wings does not make running sexy. i mean, i feel pretty fantastic after a good run, but when my flabby/loose skin gets a rash from rubbing on my shirt/side of my boob, i do not feel so hot. literally.
point: 10k, completed. longest run yet. minus bingo wing irritation, i could have continued. for a little while anyways.
i still need new socks, and probably new shoes.
under arm chafing of my bingo wings does not make running sexy. i mean, i feel pretty fantastic after a good run, but when my flabby/loose skin gets a rash from rubbing on my shirt/side of my boob, i do not feel so hot. literally.
point: 10k, completed. longest run yet. minus bingo wing irritation, i could have continued. for a little while anyways.
Monday, April 4, 2011
what are YOU inspired by?
i ran tonight. like, actually ran. i walked my first two minutes to get my legs moving, then finished 3 miles in 36.27 minutes. i was so stiff the whole time, but it really felt great.
i have 7 songs in my play list that i listen to while running, and every one of them (for different reasons) makes me want to be better. but seven songs is NOT ENOUGH. it is not enough for 3 miles, and definitely not enough for 13. so let me have them, what song(s) move you?
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i forgot to mention (and i cant believe i forgot) i received no less than 7 compliments on sunday. and another two that jason received on my behalf. i had such a hard time getting dressed on sunday because i have no dress pants that fit, and my dresses (almost all of them i have made) are TOO BIG. i ended up with one thats almost 4 inches too wide at the waist and belted it. i put on so many different outfits before getting in the shower that the water ran cold before i got in! i was frustrated and settled on an outfit and was blown away with compliments. i NEEDED that encouragement and THANK YOU!!! again if you were one of those compliments. seriously. i needed it. and i appreciate it.
i have 7 songs in my play list that i listen to while running, and every one of them (for different reasons) makes me want to be better. but seven songs is NOT ENOUGH. it is not enough for 3 miles, and definitely not enough for 13. so let me have them, what song(s) move you?
*edit
i forgot to mention (and i cant believe i forgot) i received no less than 7 compliments on sunday. and another two that jason received on my behalf. i had such a hard time getting dressed on sunday because i have no dress pants that fit, and my dresses (almost all of them i have made) are TOO BIG. i ended up with one thats almost 4 inches too wide at the waist and belted it. i put on so many different outfits before getting in the shower that the water ran cold before i got in! i was frustrated and settled on an outfit and was blown away with compliments. i NEEDED that encouragement and THANK YOU!!! again if you were one of those compliments. seriously. i needed it. and i appreciate it.
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