wednesday and weights

i was grumpy grumpy last night. i went to the gym anyways, just to get away from the house for a while. i had planned to do some sprints on the treadmill but there werent any open, so i headed for my elliptical. i did a little bit of interval training, switching between an 8/8 to an 11/11 and back, then to a 6/9 for a while to try and use some different muscle groups. i hope it worked, i am a little stiff this morning.
36 minutes 3.26 miles 415 calories

this morning i did not dread weighing myself. i have been checking my weight every other day or so to not be surprised today, and to help stay on track. last week i weighed 166.4 pounds, and this morning i weigh 164 pounds. thats a 2.4 pound loss.

i still have 16 pounds to get to my goal of 148 by the 25th. thats a little more than 3 pounds a week. its doable, but i know that i might not make it. with our busy schedules, i know i might not have the time to get to the gym, and that every bite i eat will determine if i get there or not. it feels strange to be so close though.

another thing i have been thinking about, is that i really want to gain some more muscle. i know that would have helped a long time ago to loose more fat, but i just dont know what im doing. i think that i would really benefit from a short routine several days a week, and ive asked jason if on a saturday, or evening sometime we could leave the kids and he could show me around the weight room at the rec. i would like for that to happen soon, but im not sure it will. i might have better luck trying to schedule a personal trainer session, though i hate meeting new people that way. its all on the table though. thats the next step for staying skinny.

choices part 2

i chose to eat dessert, so im choosing to workout. (i will reconsider dessert tomorrow. ugh.)

25 minutes 2.17 miles 275 calories

choices

i really really want to eat right now. but im not hungry, it is not meal time, and i will choose not to have a snack.

i just remembered i didnt post. i have a 0.2 pound loss for this week. im disappointed.

edit: i threw that one liner up last night via my phone when i remembered i had not yet recorded my weight. it seems every wednesday post is also being tagged a struggle post this month. in three weeks, ive lost 0.4 pounds. so discouraging.

but i know how to fix it. (and this is possibly the most discouraging part. i KNOW what im doing wrong and in three weeks, have not made the change.) i know that i am eating too many calories. i have chosen food for their warmth and ease and not for caloric value. there MUST be middle ground.

so this morning i am making that change. i ate my yogurt in a bowl with strawberries and some kashi go lean granola. this is more food than ive been eating in the mornings, but thats a good thing. it will keep my fuller into lunch, and people who eat a good breakfast usually take in fewer calories throughout the rest of the day. (see, i told you i KNOW this stuff. iv just not been putting it into practice like i should.)

also, i wanted to record a last workout. i DID get in my three last week. i went tuesday night and put in 35 minutes 3.14 miles 400 calories. so the goal stands for this week. work out three days. and ill get back to you with how i do making right food choices.

say yes to the dress

i love that show. something about watching a bunch of girls pick out their wedding dress makes the time at the gym go by so much faster.
42 minutes 3.78 miles 481 calories

im here. just walking, but at the gym anyways.

edit: i walked on the treadmill at an incline to make myself feel better about a lazy workout. i have cramps. the lay on the couch in misery and watch hulu all day kind of cramps. but i also have determination and will power.

35 minutes 2.02 miles 210 calories

grace

166.6 pounds.

i thought for sure i gained weight. i composed in my head in advance what i was going to say about all the garbage i ate (and absolutely enjoyed every bite of) this weekend while on our trip and how i could have made better choices even in the fast food restaurants we chose, but didnt, and how sitting in a car for 24 hours out of 72 does not burn many calories... then i got on the scale this morning and saw that i lost 0.2 pounds. grace. that little, tiny, smallest-amount-my-scale-will-measure number is a little but of grace from God. i am now 4 pounds behind for 25/25th, but i didnt gain weight the week after i lost no weight. its been rough.

i went grocery shopping yesterday and stocked up on a few basic foods that i was eating every day before i got out of the habit i had created. i have yogurt, some honey nut os, bananas, whole wheat pasta, double fiber bread, and steamable bag veggies to last for a little more than a week. its boring, but this will be a week of mostly vegetarian meals that all look pretty much the same. fewer healthier options are the best way for me to curb my calories and stay within my limits. so thats the plan. three days in im doing pretty well.

about the gym, i dont remember the last time i went. our schedule has been packed, hectic, unreliable. jason knows this and tried to make time last night, but didnt realize he has already overbooked me with commitments. so we are trying again. my goal is three days this week. and i need to leave the house for those workouts. i work harder at the gym than i do upstairs, and i need a large number next week.

ill be back soon to log a workout. promise.